20061023
bemyescape
and i am a hostage to my own humanity, self detained and forced to live in this mess i've made and all i'm asking is for you to do what you can with me,
but I can't ask you to give what you already gave
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ytd was great, manu actually won convincingly against the bindippers and i got to play tennis. plus bowling(well, sorta), sitting in a 100000year old car which speed-o-meter(among other things) DOESNT work, with a driver who clearly likes driving; in reverse/faster than a speeding bullet/kookoobananas, late night mussels (for the fatty boy) and sugarcane and more food with the guys plus their crazy antics made a hectic day end off pretty nicely. but...
i woke with kinks in my body that would not go away and being in not so good shape leads to me being not in the best of moods now. i feel like disappearing, because im annoyed. beyond f'ing annoyed. and its tough to ignore somethings, so disappearing kinda works out. and life right now, bout sucks donkeys ass and not to mention, my arms are bout to fall off. ugh and my tummys churning. so yeah, not one of em good days. when you know that there are soooooooooooooo many things to be done that take precedence over anything else, but instead you're just so caught up with how ur feeling. caught up in everything. and the worst feeling in the world, is to get caught up in ur own damn emotions and get stuck in that rut. well, boo for me then cos i haven't even hit strike three and i'm already out.
maybe its just pms talking but im so irritated! grr
and ur the cause of it.
; 12:17
